Mother's Day

    Another Mother's Day survived.  That's a terrible way to speak of Mother's Day, I know.  We spent the day celebrating Grammy's birthday, which helped me forget about it in a way.  But it's hard to truly forget when everybody is discussing their kids, grand kids, and great grand kids.  I'm pretty sure everybody at the celebration was either a mother or a father but us.  Yes we are working on adopting a child, but it's still hard to forget the long road we have taken.  Not many people realize just how much we've gone through, which I realize is our own fault.  It's not something that is easily discussed in everyday conversation.
    I've heard a number of times in passing that now that we are trying to adopt I will get pregnant.  In our case, this is physically impossible.  Yes, I've managed to get pregnant once before (resulting in an early miscarriage), but that was after surgeries and much medical intervention for both of us.  We've now depleted our medical insurance coverage and then some, and we are out of frozen "supplies".  So no, I won't be getting pregnant.
    Are we really sure we want to go through all this?  Heck yes!  Five long years of trying, getting ill for long periods of time from fertility drugs, numerous surgeries, and watching our family age around us with the feeling that we are one day going to be alone and never know what it's like...  Just imagine your life, if you are a parent, without your kids.  Wouldn't you give up eating out, stop buying "stuff" you really don't need, sell your collectibles, eat PB&J for lunch every day, give up trips, make your food from scratch, craft handmade gifts for holidays, and goodness knows what else for your kids?  I'm tired about crying about that which can't happen, I'm ready to move on and forward to that which can!  It may be a long road, but the outcome is definitely worth the money and effort.

In other news... we should be hearing from the agency tomorrow to move forward with the home-study!  Hopefully it will be speedy process.  More to come as soon as we know more.  Our T-shirt fundraiser should be up by the end of the week!

Thanks Mom (& Dad!) for setting such great examples for us!  Love you all!