Ah, the joys of adoption limbo and having no clue when things will happen. I found this blog post that describes what we are going through perfectly. I so want to nest/prepare/shop, but just don't know what we'll need when. I struggled with what to put on the baby registry, or even if it was silly to be making one so soon (late?), but apparently I'm not the only one who feels this way. I find myself thinking (every spare second my brain is not occupied with something else) about the 4 expectant moms that we've had our profiles sent out to. Did our profile even catch their attention? Were we one of two they narrowed down to, or perhaps they picked a fancier looking profile? What are they going through? Do our profiles even get to them before they decide on another adoptive family? Will we get picked in a week, or more like a year? Yes, I know it's all in God's time, and I pray about it daily, but I still keep myself up late, give myself headaches, and wonder wonder wonder.
Fortunately we are not so stressed about the financial end of things. God provides, and when we've needed to pay an adoption fee, the money has been there. Not only is Sam's job doing well, but his website is inconceivably making double what it should be. The meter on the right side of this blog reflects how much we have raised through donations and sales of my model horses, not what we have personally raised. As the year comes to a close, we are that much closer to getting back what we've spent already in adoption tax credits! Looking forward to 2012 and (hopefully) welcoming home the little one. :)
